When I've talked about a potential future relationship, I've often said that I would need a wife who would guide me and look out for me. My friends have disagreed with me, citing the Biblical standard that husbands/fathers are supposed to be heads of their households. However, I have never seen myself as much of a leader. It's not that I'm exactly a follower either; I just sort of do my own thing, which is entirely my own decision. I don't let other people's opinions sway me, but, nor do I have anybody doing all of the same things I do; I've been essentially endorsing garage sales, the Disney Channel, and libraries for years, but everyone I know either still doesn't bother with them or was already a fan of them before they even met me. Despite my gender, I just don't see myself as leader material; in fact, I'm more inclined to let the women in my life--well, okay, only the right women!--lead me.
Why would I do that? For more than one reason. First off: In my family, the women have pretty much always led. You probably know that my biological parents divorced when I was very young, leaving my mom as head of the household. What you may not know is that my maternal grandfather died when I was barely in kindergarten; my grandmother on the same side of the family, however, outlived him by nearly a decade and a half. Due to her age and related health problems, she often needed help...but, it was often my mom and my aunts--that is, my mom's siblings--that came to my grandmother's aid. My sister--the one still living, that is--has always been a "Miss Independent" type from a young age; I would say it's part of the time in which she was raised. She has never been afraid to take charge of a situation, and people have often been very thankful for that. No offense to any people with "Y" chromosomes who may be reading this, but...in my family, most--though not all!--of the guys just couldn't be depended upon, at least in my lifetime; it was the women who called the shots.
Fourth off: I have never been in a leadership position. We all know that I've never been in a relationship, but, that's true in other cases as well: I'm by far the youngest of my siblings and even the baby among my first cousins. At every job I've had, I've been the low man on the totem pole. I was never a leader in any capacity of any organization I was in, including church, Scouting, and anything online. That's probably the reason I like technology as much as I do: I can tell it what to do, and it does it...but people just won't. Then again, that may be the way God wants it; leadership just isn't in my personality. I know many would say that it should be because of my gender, but, as everyone who knows me already knows: I'm not the typical guy, and for multiple reasons.